Saturday, April 30, 2011
change
Its interesting how some people love change. I use to be one of those people. I still am in some regards. I love when it is organized change. Planned change. Change that I can get my mind around. But when its unasked for change I go crazy. Frantic. Anxiety attack every two seconds. If someone asked my opinion even once I could handle it. Some peopel though can't handle it at all. I could roll with the punches. Things changed in february. Last february. A major change. A major cost. A cost so great that it almost cost me my life. I still don't see my life as something worthy of value. Sometimes I can. But most of the time I see it as a means to an end. I am a means to an end. I feel trapped at times. Its a helpless feeling. So helpless. :( Trying to change it but its so hard.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
:(
From since last February, it seem all I have been doing is trying to survive in one way or another. Again I can't type. Again I can't put into words whats in my head. Again my body hates me. Again I feel like I want to die. But why.....Maybe I can do some later on.....
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